I’ve been exposed…..

 

I can honestly say that 2017 started off different. And when I say different, I mean I was experiencing things i had never had before. I had new people in my life, i was accountable for a lot of things at home and in ministry, friendships and relationships with family and friends were changing drastically and I was just barely making it. Working 50 hours a week, ministry almost every day and trying to maintain was just a lot. let’s just say that life was crazy. I couldn’t even see life past reality because it was so much going on. I didn’t realize that I had started focusing on the wrong things.

 

My family always plans this big vacation every year and to be honest I was very much hesitant about going because I wanted to work and make sure home was taken care of and I just didn’t have a good feeling about going. My family convinced me of going because they said that “You need a break!” and sure enough a break was what I got.

 

As soon as we got on the highway to travel down south, an overwhelming change came over me. It was so overwhelming, that I couldn’t even talk or focus. My mind began to race and things that shouldn’t have bothered me, controlled everything whether it was big or small. As I am writing this now, it’s hard for me to hold back tears and explain what really came over me.

 

It was like God had to get me by myself and shake me. I asked God what was going on with me and it hit me that God was exposing me to myself. I was so consumed with life that I didn’t even think about how much internal damage was happening. it got so rough that I was isolating myself without even knowing it. I was around hundreds of people and still felt all by myself. Let’s just say I felt like no one really cared.

 

Eventually, I ended up having an anxiety attack in my room. It wasn’t until I finally had enough and was fed up with the fight and had no other choice, but to pray. God revealed to me that I needed an internal change, I care too much about people and things that have no eternal attachments and I needed to let a lot of stuff go! A lot of the stuff that I was battling and asking God to free me from, he gave me the power and grace to release myself from it all.

 

When God shows who you YOU really are, it really humbles you and makes you want to get to the root of the issue. Like why did I make that decision? Or Why can’t I move past this season and this phase?

 

When I finally arrived back home, it had seemed that I had been in a whirlwind. I couldn’t wait to get home and be by myself. I tried everything that I possibly could to release me. Food, shopping, crying, walking; none of it worked. My place of satisfaction was no longer satisfying.

 

It wasn’t until I confessed, accepted and surrendered it all to him. I talked myself out of it with God’s word. You would think that being in ministry, you would be super close to God, but it wasn’t until I embraced his presence is when I was finally able to change.

 

Isn’t it crazy how the very thing we neglect is the very thing we need the most? The whole time I was looking for something and someone to help me and it was right in front of me. A lot of times God must break us to make us. Our weakest times are the times where God is near us the most. God had to change my heart and my mind in order for me change my perspective and my revelation.

I wrote this just to encourage those who are at their lowest to look high and try God first. We always go to everything and everybody, but the one who cares and wants what’s best for you.

Let God be God in your life!

 

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Connections…..

As you grow older, EVERYTHING changes. Not just your body and your age, but also your view on life. Situations, Circumstance, Life, will cause you to change. But one of the things that we can all agree on is that our Connections change. When I say connections, I’m talking about relationships, friendships, or even situation ships; whatever you want to call it, it’s a connection. We all have good ones and we all have bad ones, but how do you know?

I grew up sheltered and the only people I would encounter a connection with was at church, home, and school. Just those 3 places alone revealed a whole lot about connections. One of the things I’ve learned is that some connections are seasonal. Let’s just be honest, some people are not suppose to last in your life. They are there momentarily to teach you something that you never experienced before. These connections really make or break you. Let them Make you.  Now don’t get me wrong, there are some people you just wish lasted more than a season, but what I did not realize is that the momentary connection prepared me for the forever connection.

I also learned that some people are “Struggle Connections.” There are some people you will encounter that the only thing you will have in common is your struggle. I had a friend and the only thing we could connect with was what we were going through. It’s not a bad thing to have a struggle connection, but in that, there should be a release. Meaning someway you both have to encourage and uplift. Don’t get too comfortable with this connection. You want the connection to cause you and that other person to pray and not prey over you with the struggle. Eventually you have to move forward and not stay there.

Then there’s a God Sent Connection. We all have friends or people that we are close to, but there are some people in your life that you know that the connection/friendship/relationship/bond is really sent from God. You don’t have to worry about ill motives or anything because these types of connections push you further.  They cause you to be more than just the “potential you.” They really cause you to grow and not be stuck. You can sense that connection is God sent because it’s not just beneficial for you, it’s beneficial for them also. I’m grateful to have those type of people in my life.

Don’t confuse the connections! It may look like one thing, but it’s really another and the only way you will be able to know is through discernment. You always want to keep that on point so that you can be aware! Know who you are connected to and why your are connected and make sure the foundation of the connection is solid. Build on something strong because if you build on anything else, it is bound to break.

Don’t miss out on making a connection, but don’t pressure yourself to connect to someone. God knows exactly what and who you need exactly when you need it. The connections will come!

 

In the Spirit of Love and Truth,

 

Chrissy K.

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Event Highlight: #ImBuildingSomething Vision Board Party

 

We made it!!!!! 1 month down in 2017 and 11 more to go. Scary right? It felt like I just graduated from High School last week Lol. Last Year was really a year of growth and maturity for me. It was like a crash course of life! lol I had to grow up really quick. I never would have imagined being in this position that I am in this today! But I am grateful.

Before I entered into 2017, I can say that I was really looking back over the past year and I realized that I had so much work to do this year! I did not accomplish 95% of the stuff that I was suppose to accomplish. So I went into the new year with no resolution, no goals, discouraged and just over 2017 and it had not even started yet.

I couldn’t really grasp hold of what to do with my life and one day my friend reached out to me and invited me to come to a Vision Board Party. I’ve heard of the whole Vision Board Trend, but a party? Never heard of it. I was searching for some motivation and I took the chance and signed up. Not knowing what was going to happen. I was excited and nervous at the same time.

So I arrived and before you even walk in, you can feel the #GoodVibes and #GoodEnergy. As soon as I walk in, it was Poppin! lol It was way bigger and more dope than I imagined it would be. From Vendors, to music, to food, to prizes; Everything was INCREDIBLE! There was so much to get in to. You were able to network with different people and also make connections. I met two young ladies who were full of life and energy. I instantly loved them and we connected!

 

One of the highlights of this event for me was hearing My Friend Ebonie’s Pastor give key points about having a vision and planning. One of the things that really stuck out to me was “”Don’t Let your budget scare your dreams!” It really shook my faith and empowered me to just go ahead a go after my dreams and goals. He was really dope!! Creating the Vision Board was really dope because it made you really think and it made you realize that you have hope and you do have something to offer!

Overall, I really appreciate the fact that God placed people like Ebonie in my life. Very rarely do you have people in your life, that already have amazing things going for themselves, push you and challenge you to go after your dreams and aspirations and they support you! After this event, I’ve been more than inspired! It strengthened my faith and I’ve been making moves ever since.

Make sure when you come across people like this in your life that you never take advantage of them and take in everything that they pour into you. God placed them in your life for a reason.

 

 

Go follow Ebonie on Social Media:

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/EbonieisIN

 

And She also has an Dope Mix tape out (Click the Picture to Support):

 

She will be having more #ImBuildingSometing Vision Board Parties Soon! So make sure you go and support! YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED!!

 

In the spirit of truth and love,

 

Chrissy K.

 

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