I’ve been exposed…..

 

I can honestly say that 2017 started off different. And when I say different, I mean I was experiencing things i had never had before. I had new people in my life, i was accountable for a lot of things at home and in ministry, friendships and relationships with family and friends were changing drastically and I was just barely making it. Working 50 hours a week, ministry almost every day and trying to maintain was just a lot. let’s just say that life was crazy. I couldn’t even see life past reality because it was so much going on. I didn’t realize that I had started focusing on the wrong things.

 

My family always plans this big vacation every year and to be honest I was very much hesitant about going because I wanted to work and make sure home was taken care of and I just didn’t have a good feeling about going. My family convinced me of going because they said that “You need a break!” and sure enough a break was what I got.

 

As soon as we got on the highway to travel down south, an overwhelming change came over me. It was so overwhelming, that I couldn’t even talk or focus. My mind began to race and things that shouldn’t have bothered me, controlled everything whether it was big or small. As I am writing this now, it’s hard for me to hold back tears and explain what really came over me.

 

It was like God had to get me by myself and shake me. I asked God what was going on with me and it hit me that God was exposing me to myself. I was so consumed with life that I didn’t even think about how much internal damage was happening. it got so rough that I was isolating myself without even knowing it. I was around hundreds of people and still felt all by myself. Let’s just say I felt like no one really cared.

 

Eventually, I ended up having an anxiety attack in my room. It wasn’t until I finally had enough and was fed up with the fight and had no other choice, but to pray. God revealed to me that I needed an internal change, I care too much about people and things that have no eternal attachments and I needed to let a lot of stuff go! A lot of the stuff that I was battling and asking God to free me from, he gave me the power and grace to release myself from it all.

 

When God shows who you YOU really are, it really humbles you and makes you want to get to the root of the issue. Like why did I make that decision? Or Why can’t I move past this season and this phase?

 

When I finally arrived back home, it had seemed that I had been in a whirlwind. I couldn’t wait to get home and be by myself. I tried everything that I possibly could to release me. Food, shopping, crying, walking; none of it worked. My place of satisfaction was no longer satisfying.

 

It wasn’t until I confessed, accepted and surrendered it all to him. I talked myself out of it with God’s word. You would think that being in ministry, you would be super close to God, but it wasn’t until I embraced his presence is when I was finally able to change.

 

Isn’t it crazy how the very thing we neglect is the very thing we need the most? The whole time I was looking for something and someone to help me and it was right in front of me. A lot of times God must break us to make us. Our weakest times are the times where God is near us the most. God had to change my heart and my mind in order for me change my perspective and my revelation.

I wrote this just to encourage those who are at their lowest to look high and try God first. We always go to everything and everybody, but the one who cares and wants what’s best for you.

Let God be God in your life!

 

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Connections…..

As you grow older, EVERYTHING changes. Not just your body and your age, but also your view on life. Situations, Circumstance, Life, will cause you to change. But one of the things that we can all agree on is that our Connections change. When I say connections, I’m talking about relationships, friendships, or even situation ships; whatever you want to call it, it’s a connection. We all have good ones and we all have bad ones, but how do you know?

I grew up sheltered and the only people I would encounter a connection with was at church, home, and school. Just those 3 places alone revealed a whole lot about connections. One of the things I’ve learned is that some connections are seasonal. Let’s just be honest, some people are not suppose to last in your life. They are there momentarily to teach you something that you never experienced before. These connections really make or break you. Let them Make you.  Now don’t get me wrong, there are some people you just wish lasted more than a season, but what I did not realize is that the momentary connection prepared me for the forever connection.

I also learned that some people are “Struggle Connections.” There are some people you will encounter that the only thing you will have in common is your struggle. I had a friend and the only thing we could connect with was what we were going through. It’s not a bad thing to have a struggle connection, but in that, there should be a release. Meaning someway you both have to encourage and uplift. Don’t get too comfortable with this connection. You want the connection to cause you and that other person to pray and not prey over you with the struggle. Eventually you have to move forward and not stay there.

Then there’s a God Sent Connection. We all have friends or people that we are close to, but there are some people in your life that you know that the connection/friendship/relationship/bond is really sent from God. You don’t have to worry about ill motives or anything because these types of connections push you further.  They cause you to be more than just the “potential you.” They really cause you to grow and not be stuck. You can sense that connection is God sent because it’s not just beneficial for you, it’s beneficial for them also. I’m grateful to have those type of people in my life.

Don’t confuse the connections! It may look like one thing, but it’s really another and the only way you will be able to know is through discernment. You always want to keep that on point so that you can be aware! Know who you are connected to and why your are connected and make sure the foundation of the connection is solid. Build on something strong because if you build on anything else, it is bound to break.

Don’t miss out on making a connection, but don’t pressure yourself to connect to someone. God knows exactly what and who you need exactly when you need it. The connections will come!

 

In the Spirit of Love and Truth,

 

Chrissy K.

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Walking in your Truth…..

 

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Hey Ya’ll!

 

Haven’t been on my blog in a while. Life has been really crazy, but one of the things that I’m learning to accept is my truth. There are lot of things in our lives that we deal with that we are in denial about. Whether it’s our habits, relationships, situations, or whatever it is, we are in denial about it because we believe that the truth is hard to accept.

The last 3 years I have walked around certain things in my life and because I didn’t want to face the truth, I convinced myself that it was something different. Because I didn’t walk in my truth, I was walking around broken and bound by lies and denial and defeated.

I’ve made bad choices and mistakes that I started to convince myself that I was OK and that I can deal with it later.  I didn’t realize that being in denial was bringing so much clutter into my mind, heart and spirit.  The things we lie to ourselves about everyday will continue to cause us to see things unclear. Your mind will become so cluttered with unhealthy things. Being in denial brings clutter, but truth brings clarity.

The first thing that came to mind about Truth is that When you’re walking in truth, you walk in freedom. I thought about the scripture John 8:32  “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” I was wondering why  my life was always going around in circles and I never could get past the same obstacle. It was because I didn’t walk in my truth. To be totally honest, You can’t honestly walk in his will until you walk in your truth. His WILL is your TRUTH!

If we were to really walk in our truth could you imagine how much further we could be? Or how much baggage we wouldn’t have to carry if we would just WALK IN OUR TRUTH!

In order to walk in your truth you must Accept your truth, Forgive yourself and others, Obey what God has told you, and Trust him.

Never let your mind go back to the old mindset. Philippians 4:8 says “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.

It all boils down to the way you think. What you think will soon be what you live!

 

So what is my truth?

My truth is that I can handle whatever I am facing because I have God and that’s all I need.

My truth is that I need to be confident in not only God, but myself.

My truth is that I can no longer compromise what I believe and settle just to say I have something.

My truth is I need to be more patient and just trust the process.

My truth is that his WILL is what’s best for me.

My truth is that my mistakes, mess-ups, bad choices, and flaws were all for a reason.

 

 

What is your truth? Leave a comment below!

 

In the spirit of truth and love,

 

Chrissy K.

 

 

 

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